God Hates Me

Two incidents happened yesterday that helped me come to the conclusion that God really hates me.

1. A christian friend called me in hysterics because one of her christian girlfriends told her that the reason her new relationship is failing is because God is punishing her for not living right. My friend was upset because she couldn't understand what she's been doing that was so awful that God wanted to emotionally destroy her.

2. I told a christian acquaintance about my friend being hospitalized and I asked her what kind of prayer I should pray for him. She basically said God is punishing him because of his lifestyle and I should basically pray the gay out of him. Oh I'm also supposed to tell him while he's potentially on his deathbed that he's going to burn in hell if he doesn't denounce his love for Jeremy and ask for forgiveness.

These 2 friends that the christians say God is punishing right now are the most loving and kindhearted folks I know. If God thinks they are the suck then there is absolutely no reason for me to try to win favor. I've done way more dirt in my first ten years of existence than these two suckers have done their whole lives. I'm so over this shit.
All this time I've been visiting my friend in ICU I thought I was witnessing God's mercy. Everytime the Doc's came in with the, "This doesn't look good" speech, my friend would beat that shit. His lung is collapsing...oops, no it's not. His kidneys are failing...not anymore. His T cells are low...now they are thru the roof and his viral load is undetectable. I saw these things as Gods Mercy, miracles if you will. But What do I know. I don't go to church. I don't have hella fucking bible verses singed into my brain. I only remeber maybe 5 of the 10 commandments.
The church folks just schooled me. These ain't fuckin' miracles or mercy. God's a fuckin' sadist apparently. He's getting Joy from torturing my friends. He enjoys bringing them to the brink of death, watching them beg for mercy and just when they give up all hope or start praying for death he fucking delivers them. Church folks God is a fucking cold blooded asshole. Satan couldn't possible exist. Why? God does the evil maniacal dirty work so who needs a satan? If satan is somehow worse than God then this means that a loving, compassionate, forgiving God does not exist. Christians got a God who spends his days and nights bringing punishment in life, while satan waits in the background for God to destroy you so he can continue the torture in death.
I was told we come here as sinners. So life is a fucking set up for Gods torture? According to the christians god punishes and tortures us because we sin. Is this why babies get AIDS, or Cancer, or die in their sleep? Fucking Preemie sinner bastards.

Today Christians suck! I hate them all. And you know which ones I hate the most. I hate the tolerant, compassionate christians that read Gods word and try their best to live in harmony with their fellow man. I hate them the most because their silence is deafening and ruining my life. They are the only ones that can drown out the lies of the hate christians yet they remain quiet. They allow the God- hates- you christians to be the voice to the masses. They allow the wolves in sheeps clothing to prey on fragile souls like mine in the name of their Jesus/God/ Trinity.
The REAL Christians should step the fuck up! God must hate your quiet asses as much as he hates my sinner ass as you are his true representatives and he's losing a lot of souls because of your cowardice. My vision of God was tainted yesterday.

Where were you?